I have outlived my aspirations
Nikolai Karlovich Medtner
I have outlived my aspirations
I have outloved my every dream
Suffering is my sole persuasion,
My heart feels only what has been.
Green was my garland - it has faded,
Blown by a destiny severe,
But I live on, alone and jaded,
Wondering if my end is near.
Defeated by the autumn frost,
With winter whistling down the heath,
On a bare branch, alone and lost,
I'm a forgotten, shivering leaf.